I believe...there are angels among us...

Good evening everyone...hoping that you all had a MARVELOUS Monday!!!  I don't know about anyone else, but I have an ever so slight addiction to Facebook...it's really not that bad, I mean...it's not like I need TREATMENT or anything...hahahaha...ok, so maybe I do..heehee!!  ...anyway, there is a page that I follow called "Poems and Quotes"...I'm mentioning this, because I came across a little quote that I ABSOLUTELY fell in love with and it is my inspiration for tonight's post and even though I would LOVE to take full credit for it, I have to give credit where credit is due! The past few weeks have been a WHIRLWIND of EXCITEMENT...soooo much going on, so many changes..all for the good, but now that things have settled down a bit...I think that I'm going through some sort of down time, just a lot of life thinking....the whole questioning of what is my purpose..all of that kind of thing....you know, we all have to have these reflective times...it is from these moments that we grow and learn more about ourselves...soooo, these times are actually a blessing...just disguised up a little bit....so anyway...here's my inspiration quote for this evening... :)

"Do you?"

By: Ashley Ulrick

Do you feel alone at times but your not, Do you ever get that feeling someone is following you, Do you ever wonder who is crying, Do you ever wonder what is that sound behind you, Do you ever get a call from someone but no one is there, Do you ever worry over and over, Do you pray to God for the answers, Do you ask a friend or family member who is behind you, Do you ever hear the door bell ring and there is no one there, Do you ever ask the lord what is going on, Did you ever know it was your guardian Angel all this time trying to give you a hard time...Just say yes because you know your guardian Angel is keeping an eye on you.

This particular quote made me feel all warm inside...it's such a nice thought knowing that there is something out there watching over us.  There are a lot of times that I like to think that the loved one's that we have lost are watching over us and protecting us, but then I think...OH NO...what if they CAN see what we are doing....WHOA!!!  I better change what I'm doing...they would be SO disappointed if they knew that I made this decision or that decision...sometimes it will make me think twice about what I'm doing...hmmmm...what a thought!  There are so many things that I have done or decisions that I have made with the thought of 'Would Grandma approve of this???'...the answer is usually a big NO...otherwise I probably wouldn't be asking myself that quesion, right?? haha....then on the other end of the spectrum, there are things that I have done that I know that they would be proud of..in fact those things that I am most proud of are the parts of them that they left with me....YAYYYY!!!  ...yes, I'm totally rambling...with no destination in mind...that's scary..haha!!!

Anyway, I think that what I'm trying to say....is that no matter what decision we make or what we have done or what we are doing...all that matters is that we got something out of it...either it was something that taught us some sort of lesson or it was something that happened so that we could learn more about ourselves or another person, because I do believe..with my entire being that absolutely everything happens for a reason and everyone we meet, we were supposed to meet...even if for a short time....they all have a purpose in our life's journey!  ...and to think that there is someone or something out there watching over us along our road...well, that just makes it better, and might make me think twice about feeling lonely or sad or depressed...because I know that my Grandma would NEVER want her grandchildren to feel that way...and just because I have to, I'm going to leave you with just one of the many happy memories that I have of her....My dear, sweet Grandma...we used to go visit her and she would just sit there and look at us and then she would touch our faces and our hair and look at us and tell us that we were the most beautiful girls that she has ever seen...I remember how soft her skin was...how AMAZINGLY beautiful her smile was and her twinkling eyes...and I swear all that she ever seen was LOVE...she truly, whole heartedly LOVED her family and we were kiddos..and it wasn't until we grew up a little and she passed away that we realized fully that she was the absolute definition of LOVE and she would want nothing less for her girls....I can still picture her in my mind and as I'm sitting here typing this and sharing it with all of you and tears are rolling down my eyes...I've never been happier sitting here remembering her, all of her beauty and all of her wisdom...words cannot portray how much she left us all with...she is in our hearts...she is in my heart....and suddenly I feel an overwhelmingly HUMUNGOUS amount of love...and hopefully will start my tomorrow with an attitude of love and patience...our past is what made us who we are and our present is a reflection of how we react to the past....ok, well I'm going to sign off for the evening and enjoy the rest of the night remembering my Grandma....my guardian angel....have a wonderful evening!!  :)



...this little light of mine...I'm gonna let it SHINE..

WOOOOOHOOOOOO....I am SOOOO happy to have the opportunity to write a little blog tonight...seems like it has been..ohhhhhhhh, I don't know....FORRREVVVERRRRRRR!!!!  YIPPPPEEEE SKIPPEEEEEE!!! 
I'm hoping that everything has been FABULOUS for everyone this past week or so....I've been basking in my new place...enjoying it and finding new little "projects" of creating some of my so called masterpieces to decorate it up just a litttttttle more...one can NEVER stop decorating and designing, right....looks like my weekend is going to be full of fun little projects..I'm SOOOO excited.....
Ok, sooooo as you know, I LOVVVVE quotes....so, as I was searching for something, you know....LIFE CHANGING...I came across this one...so, this is my starting point...here it is:

"Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement." - Golda Meir

YESSSSSS....don't you just LOVE this one....I most certainly DO!!!  This particular quote kind of played at my heartstrings...hit home just a little bit!  I believe this with my ENTIRE being...although, I am still, most definitely a work in progress....but, I'm going to focus on the 'progress' part of that statement...always progressing...moving forward...NEVER, EVER, EVER, EVER, EVER, EVVVVERRRRRRRRR giving UP....EVERRRRRR!!!!!!! 
Sometimes, when I'm just sitting around and thinking about things, my mind wanders to all that I wanted to be and all that I dreamed to be....wellllll, it seems that mayyybe things haven't been all that I dreamed of or imagined...and through it ALLL, it turns out.....IT'S BETTTTTERRRRR!!!  ....a lot of little detours later.....soooo many lessons learned....and here I am...gaining strength and wisdom with each passing day!!  YESSSSSS!!!!!
When I was growing up, the thing that I remember wanting was to be a doctor....I would even sign my name really messy and put M.D. behind it...ohhhh yessss....hahahahaha!!!  What a funny thought, because as an adult, I can't imagine the pressure of being a doctor...we don't think of those things as kiddos...but, I'll tell you what, I had the BEST time pretending that I could cure the world of ALL diseases....then as I got a bit older, I realized that I wanted to be an artist....a TRUE artist...traveling the world, living from place to place...never having a plan....just LIVE in pure beauty....ahhhhhh, now THAT was the life for me...heehee!!!
Soooo, here I am working in probably the MOST opposite position of either of these dream careers....no, I don't LOVE the work...but, I LOVE THE PEOPLE, which in turn...yeahhhhh, I don't mind going to work everyday, because THIS job, this job I was SO hesitant about...this job that is so on the opposite spectrum of me has given me not one, but TWO amazing things....first...I've made some ABSOLUTELY AMAZING friends and second, it has given me the means to pursue....ART!!  This job has given me baby wings in all aspects of my life!!  Sooooooo, I am creating the person that I am going to be happy with for my entire life annnnnnnd am still fanning those little sparks of possibility that I had as a child to make them grow into HUGE flames of ACHIEVEMENT....and I owe it all to the people in my life and a job that I would have NEVER seen myself in...and somewhat enjoying!  So, I guess that what I'm trying to say is that sometimes we all tend to think that we have been handed the losing hand in life, we don't have the job that we want, we don't have the time we want...etc, etc.....but, when you stop for just a minute or two and look around...it's there...it may be disguised as something else...possibly hiding somewhere in the cracks, but...BELIEVE ME...IT'S TOTALLY THERE and once you see it....you'll sit back and wonder how you have been missing it for SO long....don't focus on the bad, the negative or at what you think is the end of the road....don't do it....DON'T EVERRRR GO THERE, because it's just a trick....it's like a practical joke or maybe a puzzle..that spark IS there if you just look!!  When we focus our whole being on what we don't have...hmmmmm, then really....we have NOTHING!!  ....but, when you start focusing on what you HAVE, where you have been and the strength that it took to get there....you start seeing the world open up...you start seeing smiles and people saying 'hi' when they pass by you...you start seeing a bright, friendly.....GOOOD world....and you've got it on a string...YOU control it....awwwwwwww YEAHHHHHHHH.....perfect life...if you just open your mind to it....those frowns disappear...like magic...those rude people, well...you rarely see them anymore and suddenly EVERYTHING sparkles and EVERYTHING shines....even YOU!!!  YAYYYYYY!!!
Have a wonderful evening everyone.....talk to you soon.... :)))))

..the people you meet along your way..

Good EARLY afternoon...yep, I'm starting earlier than usual today...gotta take my opportunity when there's a computer around since I don't get my internet until the 18th...WHOA!!  I might just go into withdrawl..thank goodness for my phone..hahaha!!
I had soooo many ideas on what I was going to write today, and guess what...I can't seem to remember ANY of the topics...shooooot!!!
So, I am going to talk about the people that we meet along our journey...I found this quote on FaceBook..I liked a page called 'Positive Inspirational Quotes'..which is where I got this from...since I'm not sure the gal's name, I'll just give her credit by saying where I found it...it's a really neat page...and is SOOOOO inspiring to me...as the name of the page states..haha...ok...here's the quote:

"If you're having a hard time letting go, realize that if they wanted to stay they'd still be there. Sometimes you have to forget what's gone, appreciate what still remains, and look forward to what's coming next. It sucks when you know that you need to let go, but you can't, because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen. Although it may seem like the wrong thing to do, you have to forget about the person who forgot about you. Some people are meant to stay in your heart, but not in your life." -SQ

Ok...so I know that I've talked A LOTTTT about the people in my life and how much they mean to me..I really don't think that I can possibly say it enough...they are my world!!  There have been a few people that, I'm pretty sure, were brought into my life in order for me to learn....yes, I felt a little bit of hurt and there were some tears shed, but looking back on it...WOW...these particular people will probably never know the impact that they had on my life.  At the time, I thought that they were everything...someday, we'll come together and be OHHHH SOOOO HAPPY...but, yeah...it was not to be...I'm still single, but you know what???  I LOVE IT!!  ...I'm not saying that if a knight (and yes, he would actually have to be a knight..ha!) in shining armour walked up to me and said...YOU..YES YOU...I want to spend some time getting to know you and you getting to know me...and we walk off into the sunset..pure BLISS...hahahaha!!  Yes..then here's reality sitting on my shoulder...the chances of that happening...well, let's just say..I would probably win the largest lottery in the history of the lottery before that will ever happen..heehee!!  ...but, yes I have found contentment being a single girlie...but, it has taken all of the GOOD people to show me that it's ok....
Once I left the job that I spoke about in my post yesterday..I thought that it was over...I had my chances, my opportunities and I turned around and walked away...now, I'm going to have to work in a job where I don't get to use any of my passions...my talents...just a hum drum, get up and go and count the hours until I get to go home...blahhhhhhhhh!!  Well, surprise, surprise, SURPRISE....I walked into a job that I know NOTHING about...I struggled those first few weeks..I thought that there was NO way, absolutely NO WAY that I would be able to do this job..it just wasn't me...and THEN..I started to get to know the people that I was working with....AMMMMAZZZZZINNNNNG PEOPLE...ABSOLUTELY AMAZING...in every possible way!! The people that I was going to be working with showed me how to be ME...how to be POSITIVE and how to go after what you want..no stopping to ask questions....JUST GO...DOOOOO ITTTTTTT...
Soooo, as it turns out....I was blessed beyond imagine by going into something that I wasn't so sure about....I have grown a LIFETIME of years this past year....yes, the people that you meet along your way...the good one's, the bad one's and the lost one's....that's a lot of different people in my lifetime and ALL have taught me something...thank God that I came across those that showed me how to think for myself and look for the good, because...like I've said...there's always good..somewhere, it all depends on the way you look at it...and yeah...I just have one more little story...mannnnnn, this is getting lonnnnnggggg....I was talking with one of the gal's I work with about a post from a week or so ago..she asked me....Molly, when do you stop letting people use you??  Boy, that was a hard one...when do you stop letting those certain one's take advantage of you....to be honest, I really don't know....there is passage in the Bible that says that we should continue to forgive seven times seventy...and then I think...there's been times...A LOT of times that I probably didn't deserve forgiveness, but luckily...the people in my life forgave me and forgot about it all...like it never even happened...WOW!!!  I guess, here's my response to that question...I will continue to forgive, because sometimes that's all a person needs...acceptance...yes, there are people out there that will use us, I'm not blind to it when it's happening, but my hope, is that one day, they will come around and maybe I might need to be forgiven by them..sometimes we do things unconsciensly (that's totally spelled wrong, but I'm too lazy to look up the correct spelling..heehee!) anyway, and we don't realize that we are hurting or using someone....but, use your instincts about people...never let ANYONE take anything away from you...as long as we can be strong enough to not let that happen, all is well...at least I hope so...ha!! ..and to wrap this post up and bring it around...back to the quote above....some people will stay in your heart forever, but not in your life....you have to love from a distance, which I've learned..is yet another little blessing...and it helps us to move forward...with love!
Have a FABULOUS day everyone....I'm back to work tomorrow....ooooooooooo, I'm NOT ready...I love sitting around and enjoying my new place, but gotta pay the bills somehow...heehee....nooooo, I'm really looking forward to seeing all of the cutest little faces of my coworkers and visiting...5 days is a LONG time to be away from those crazy peeps..heehee!!!  Have a good one!  :)

Movin on up...tooo teee tahhhh-ahhhh....

GOOD EVENING, EVERYONE!!  Soooooo happy to get back to my little bloggy world...who knew that you could miss this SO much...heehee!!  Welllll, there's been quite a few changes going on in my little life....I MOVED, I MOVED, I MOVVVVED...hence the title...and for those of you that don't remember...it's from a show called "The Jefferson's"..it was the theme song...and guess who can't seem to get it out of her head...yeah...that would be meeee!! 
Soooo, I have pretty much everything put in its place...I think that I'm really going to like it here...I'm slowly turning it into my little bungalow...ha!!!  Tomorrow is my last day off before I have to return to the real world, boy oh boy...I have SOOOOO enjoyed my time off...too bad that I'm not independently wealthy, huh?? 
Soooooo, what to talk about in my post this evening...I can't seem to settle onto a single topic...with all of the excitement and emotion of moving...I'm a bit overwhelmed...I just want to talk about my new place, but then I want to talk about everything else....WHOA!!!
Hmmmm....so, these past few days, I've been lounging around, pretty much moving at the speed of a disabled turtle...taking my time getting things done...creating my little masterpieces and enjoying every single second...but, on the other hand, I'm missing my coworkers, my friends...and of course, my family...although having Kirsten and Mike here is more of a blessing than they will ever know.  Looking back on my life these past few years and looking at how far I have come to get to this point...I am SO proud of myself!  WOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!  Everyone says, you have to be strong...it's going to be a tough road, but you can do it if you put your mind to it....but, you know what...I'm not sure that I "consciously" made the decision to make things better..I think that is just happened..isn't that weird??  I had the opportunity to work at a job that I LOVVVVVVED for a little over a year....do you want to know what happened in that year????  I met two people, who to this day, I swear I was supposed to meet..kind of like fate..if you believe in that...but, they were some of the MOST INSPIRING people that I have ever come into contact with...my ENTIRE attitude changed, my whole outlook on life....I don't know if they will ever realize how they affected me and my life.  I'm sure that I had met people in my life that, under different circumstances, would have had the same effect on me, but these two came into my life at EXACTLY the right time...it was wonderful....and as the saying goes..all great things must come to an end....I had to leave, not because I wanted to, but because they gave me the wings I needed to make decisions to improve my future....AWWWWWW....HOW I LOVE THEM...and miss them....I still see their beautiful photo's and pray for their continued success..they are wonderful.  Soooooo, after being there I started looking differently at my own family and friends...HOLY COW...you know WHATTTTTT??????  I've had these little blessings my entire life and failed to see it...my parents...there are none better......my sisters..my bestest friends and my rocks when I need to be grounded....and my nephew...sweet innocence....cheering us all on in our little adventures.....and my friends...support and love trickeling over everywhere....so, in this, I'm trying to get across the point that we are ALLLLLL surrounded by LOVVVE...but, unfortunately, we fail to see it because we are SO focused on ourselves...I hope and pray that each one of you find someone, whether it be a friend, family member, boss...ANYONE...that will let that light shine and help you to see what's been around you the entire time....I owe my WORLD to my family and my friends....and of course, I owe Troy and Heather for taking me in and opening my eyes to see how WONDERFUL this big 'ole world is...if you just look....it's ABSOLUTELY AMMMAZZZZINNNNGGGG!!!  Soooooo, to end tonight's post, I just want to say....look around you....no sound to interrupt you...think about your life and the people in it....think about ALLLL that you have and put NO thought towards what you don't have....and give thanks, because it's truly a blessing!  Good night all.....have a FANTASTIC evening!  :)))